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As much as it's worth, I'll take what I can get. My wife goes in for surgery in 2 days, she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer and is set for a hysterectomy on Thursday. It's brought back lots of memories and discussion from my own cancer treatment now 27 years ago. They said the scans look like it's likely stage 1 but her blood test showed "extremely" high (the doctor's words) markers for ovarian cancer so it is likely to either be stage 1 or stage 3, but the scans don't show immediate signs of metastasizing, so we are hopeful it's stage 1.
And now especially in our 34th year of marriage it's a tough thing when the thought hits me of what if it's worse than we think. I can't imagine my life without her. We were 21 and 23 when we got married. Too young by far. But apparently it's worked out. And to think of everything we've been through in those years we are so far removed from who we were back then. It's kind of amazing we've made it work this long, especially with what an obvious ******* I am. She means so much to me. I can't lose her.
I hope I can do her some justice as her caregiver when she has been mine so much over the years. She keeps me going through everything we've been through. I'll give her the best I have to offer.
Anyway don't mean to get maudlin about it but my emotions have been so up and down over the past few weeks since we got the diagnosis. So keep her in your thoughts if you can. She means the world to me. We both recently left the LDS church, well for me it's been a few years but very recent for her, and we talked about how much comfort religion brought in times like this even though we both know it to be a sham now. But it did feel like you were invoking a higher power to put your hands on someone and bless them in the name of God, and it did bring comfort. Now where does the comfort come from?
So I thought I'd invoke the comfort of jazz fanz. Goddamn how pathetic is that? lol
Any thoughts or prayers or whatever you believe would be appreciated. Or just wish us luck.
Thanks for listening. Maybe I just needed to rant about this all for a bit but I do feel a bit better.
And now especially in our 34th year of marriage it's a tough thing when the thought hits me of what if it's worse than we think. I can't imagine my life without her. We were 21 and 23 when we got married. Too young by far. But apparently it's worked out. And to think of everything we've been through in those years we are so far removed from who we were back then. It's kind of amazing we've made it work this long, especially with what an obvious ******* I am. She means so much to me. I can't lose her.
I hope I can do her some justice as her caregiver when she has been mine so much over the years. She keeps me going through everything we've been through. I'll give her the best I have to offer.
Anyway don't mean to get maudlin about it but my emotions have been so up and down over the past few weeks since we got the diagnosis. So keep her in your thoughts if you can. She means the world to me. We both recently left the LDS church, well for me it's been a few years but very recent for her, and we talked about how much comfort religion brought in times like this even though we both know it to be a sham now. But it did feel like you were invoking a higher power to put your hands on someone and bless them in the name of God, and it did bring comfort. Now where does the comfort come from?
So I thought I'd invoke the comfort of jazz fanz. Goddamn how pathetic is that? lol
Any thoughts or prayers or whatever you believe would be appreciated. Or just wish us luck.
Thanks for listening. Maybe I just needed to rant about this all for a bit but I do feel a bit better.
