How goes it? How are things with the family and stuff? When's the funeral?
We have something in common...drugs. So to speak. I've had many close, close friends on smack, coke, pills, etc. Fortunately, all of them hit bottom at some point and were able to pull through. See thats the thing, until he or she hits bottom, very rarely is there anything you can do for them. So, again, not sure what you're thinking right now, but dont blame yourself or feel guilty. He made his decisions.
Anyway, hope you're doing better.
Also, don't think for a minute that after this message I dont think you're a ****ing hack.