To the subject at hand, the "distress" experienced by some by the election of Donald Trump....
I experience a great deal of internal conflict when I consider the idea of America, and the history of America. On the one hand, I learned to oppose American imperialistic ambitions. I did not find it always dovetailed with the ideal of expanding human freedoms at the heart of our Declaration of Independence and our Constitution. (And I do recognize that those freedoms took time, and a good deal of conflict and internal warfare to really be achieved. At first, property qualifications to "earn" the right to vote, the elimination of slavery, an entire sex denied the vote until a mere hundred years ago). There is so much of our history that simply is not pretty, and strays far from the idealized view I was taught in grammar and high school.
Yet, it's really seems like a stab to the heart to see our president trash our friends and allies, and praise the worst authoritarians in the world. Telling the president of the Philippines that he was doing a "great job" with his nations' drug problem, knowing it included extrajudicial killings of drug users, including by the Phillipine president himself. Standing before the world's cameras in Helsinki and saying he believed the man who ordered the attack on our democratic institution of free elections. Or, most recently, cozying up to the leader of Hungary, a man who wishes to create an ethnostate:
https://news.google.com/articles/CA...w5vrMATC_9SQwxbyWAw?hl=en-US&gl=US&ceid=US:en
When I consider those approaches by Trump, the idealistic image that was instilled into me in my youngest years, reasserts itself, despite a more realistic and jaded understanding of our history. I want us to be better then this. I want a leader that wants us to be better then that. I believe we are a unique experiment in the history of the world. Whatever idealism that remains toward my country simply recoils at how far removed Trump seems to be from reflecting our values. But it is a matter of intense internal conflict on my part, contradictory forces internally are at play, it's not an easy go of it.