Thank you all so much for the kind words. It's been a terrible roller coaster. They did updated scans and found a spot on her pancreas so the surgery just got upgraded. Here I am trying to get to sleep so I can be ready to take her in the morning and I can't get my brain to settle down. We are still hopeful. The dr said the spots could be cancer and could also be a variety of other things and that she and the radiologist both don't think they look like typical cancer nodules in the pancreas but we won't know until they get in there. Today my wife was really happy, felt really optimistic, and I did my best to enjoy that with her and not drag her down, and I think I did pretty good keeping a lid on my worry. I hope she continues to feel that way. My work has been stellar about all this. My boss more or less said take any time I need to take care of her. He said "if you show up one day I'll assume you are at work that day, if you don't, I'll assume you're at home that day. It's up to you but I promise you the paychecks will keep coming no matter what and you won't have to worry about a job here." Fantastic guy. Best boss I've ever had.
And again, thank you all for the great comments and well wishes. It does help sometimes to know you are not alone, even if it is just a bunch of Internet whackos, at least you know someone has your back. Thanks so much. I'll update here when we get more info after the surgery. I'm happy to be part of such a great community here. Love you guys.
Keep your chin up mate. Its great that your boss is being supportive too, makes a huge difference. Just keep the positive vibes going brother.