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Final chemo treatment is next week, the week of Thanksgiving. As expected, things get harder with each treatment, the effects are somewhat cumulative. This last one was pretty rough, and we had 2 hospital visits for blood transfusions due to low platelets, but the bigger concern was extremely low hemoglobin and white blood cells. We have more or less completely cut off contact with friends and family, only occasionally seeing any of our kids. It has been really tough for her because her family is her life. And she is mine, so it just kills me to see her suffering. I know it is a good thing, the way to keep her with us longer, but wow this has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. And I know it has for her too, which is what makes it so tough. So next week, no thanksgiving with the family. Interesting note, she went through her journals from my cancer treatment 27 years ago and saw that I was released from the hospital after one of my chemo treatments on the Monday before thanksgiving, and we missed thanksgiving with the family that year too. Interesting coincidence.

So I decided to make our thanksgiving early this year, we are doing it this coming weekend, when she is feeling the best she can in her chemo cycle. A friend of my wife's raises chickens, and they offered us a capon for our mini-early-thanksgiving dinner. I do not think I ever had that before, so it sounds great. Cooking it on my smoker, along with the stuffing, also cooked on the smoker, and a pumpkin pie cooked on the smoker. Believe me, it works for real, if you can get your smoker to hold 350 for an hour and 15 minutes. Since I am going to be mostly free on thanksgiving day, I am also cooking turkey and pumpkin pie for my kids to take to their various thanksgiving dinners they are going to. That way at least we get to see them briefly and we can be a small part of their celebration.

But it is a celebration, the last chemo treatment. Breathe a cautious sigh of relief. She is so happy to be done, and I totally get that. Chemo was one of the worst experiences of my life. I never wanted her to have to go through this, but wow am I glad for modern medicine and a good chance of beating this disease and having her with me for years to come.

We are also very thankful for the Jazz Fanz family, and your contribution to our gofundme was overwhelming and humbling. Thank you all so much. Love you guys.
 
LogGrad98 said:
Final chemo treatment is next week, the week of Thanksgiving. As expected, things get harder with each treatment, the effects are somewhat cumulative. This last one was pretty rough, and we had 2 hospital visits for blood transfusions due to low platelets, but the bigger concern was extremely low hemoglobin and white blood cells. We have more or less completely cut off contact with friends and family, only occasionally seeing any of our kids. It has been really tough for her because her family is her life. And she is mine, so it just kills me to see her suffering. I know it is a good thing, the way to keep her with us longer, but wow this has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. And I know it has for her too, which is what makes it so tough. So next week, no thanksgiving with the family. Interesting note, she went through her journals from my cancer treatment 27 years ago and saw that I was released from the hospital after one of my chemo treatments on the Monday before thanksgiving, and we missed thanksgiving with the family that year too. Interesting coincidence.

So I decided to make our thanksgiving early this year, we are doing it this coming weekend, when she is feeling the best she can in her chemo cycle. A friend of my wife's raises chickens, and they offered us a capon for our mini-early-thanksgiving dinner. I do not think I ever had that before, so it sounds great. Cooking it on my smoker, along with the stuffing, also cooked on the smoker, and a pumpkin pie cooked on the smoker. Believe me, it works for real, if you can get your smoker to hold 350 for an hour and 15 minutes. Since I am going to be mostly free on thanksgiving day, I am also cooking turkey and pumpkin pie for my kids to take to their various thanksgiving dinners they are going to. That way at least we get to see them briefly and we can be a small part of their celebration.

But it is a celebration, the last chemo treatment. Breathe a cautious sigh of relief. She is so happy to be done, and I totally get that. Chemo was one of the worst experiences of my life. I never wanted her to have to go through this, but wow am I glad for modern medicine and a good chance of beating this disease and having her with me for years to come.

We are also very thankful for the Jazz Fanz family, and your contribution to our gofundme was overwhelming and humbling. Thank you all so much. Love you guys.
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Man I hope the end is near and the recovery can begin in earnest.
Love you man
 
LogGrad98 said:
Final chemo treatment is next week, the week of Thanksgiving. As expected, things get harder with each treatment, the effects are somewhat cumulative. This last one was pretty rough, and we had 2 hospital visits for blood transfusions due to low platelets, but the bigger concern was extremely low hemoglobin and white blood cells. We have more or less completely cut off contact with friends and family, only occasionally seeing any of our kids. It has been really tough for her because her family is her life. And she is mine, so it just kills me to see her suffering. I know it is a good thing, the way to keep her with us longer, but wow this has been the hardest thing I have ever been through. And I know it has for her too, which is what makes it so tough. So next week, no thanksgiving with the family. Interesting note, she went through her journals from my cancer treatment 27 years ago and saw that I was released from the hospital after one of my chemo treatments on the Monday before thanksgiving, and we missed thanksgiving with the family that year too. Interesting coincidence.

So I decided to make our thanksgiving early this year, we are doing it this coming weekend, when she is feeling the best she can in her chemo cycle. A friend of my wife's raises chickens, and they offered us a capon for our mini-early-thanksgiving dinner. I do not think I ever had that before, so it sounds great. Cooking it on my smoker, along with the stuffing, also cooked on the smoker, and a pumpkin pie cooked on the smoker. Believe me, it works for real, if you can get your smoker to hold 350 for an hour and 15 minutes. Since I am going to be mostly free on thanksgiving day, I am also cooking turkey and pumpkin pie for my kids to take to their various thanksgiving dinners they are going to. That way at least we get to see them briefly and we can be a small part of their celebration.

But it is a celebration, the last chemo treatment. Breathe a cautious sigh of relief. She is so happy to be done, and I totally get that. Chemo was one of the worst experiences of my life. I never wanted her to have to go through this, but wow am I glad for modern medicine and a good chance of beating this disease and having her with me for years to come.

We are also very thankful for the Jazz Fanz family, and your contribution to our gofundme was overwhelming and humbling. Thank you all so much. Love you guys.
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Log, my man. I'm incredibly sorry to hear and want you to know you are a great guy and brave for sharing this and being vulnerable.

I don't post on here hardly at all anymore. I'm just not the same dude that I was when it made it fun, but I still have a lil Archie Moses in me and always will.

I'm happy that this forum, one I have a special place in my heart for, has a community of real people and support. That's the best thing about this forum and this thread alone proves the success of this site and community. There's a lot of twats on here with terrible opinions, trolls, Richardheads, fake angry, political correctness bs, but a lot of that is a persona or people venting their frustrations and hate for their miserable lives. My damn self included. But who gives a **** cause there are some great people like yourself on here.

I haven't talked to Troutbum in probably over a year or two, but I guarantee that guy would help me if I was in mess. He has before.


Love you Log, JazzFanz community members, and for sharing your struggles, fears, and vulnerability. It's OK to not be OK. It's OK to be scared. It's OK to have struggles. It's OK to share that to people.

I'm proud of this site and glad I randomly got on today.

Lastly, Cody Williams drinks pee. One of the worst basketball players in the NBA. Dude looks like he could be way better than his brother, but he also looks like Goofy too.

Jazzhacks 4 life. 5 months of hard lifting. Kosta yeah, bitches crew, calling someone alt right boys, Vinlyone being short, and dunking on Troutbum in a Jazzfanz pickup game.
 
Your dedication to your wife is amazing man, it is something we should all aspire to.

I do believe there is life after death and all souls (that wants to) will gather together and meet up again. Human life’s only a blip, .. one day you’ll meet up with her again I’m sure of it given your love and commitment for each other.

Gos bless.
 
I know I haven't posted much here recently. It worked it's way into being a routine so that's kind of a good thing. Plus I have been trying to stay away from media in general only partly successfully. We have had some very scary moments, I had my moment of needing to tell her goodbye because they didn't think she'd make the night. But she did and I'm eternally grateful for that.

So the current update is the chemo is done. The week after her last chemo treatment we ended up in the ER and they didn't think she'd make the night. Same as with mine, the chemo almost took her from us.

Now I'm sitting in the waiting room at st Mark's while she is in for her hopefully final surgery. Full hysterectomy. Take out everything plus every little sign of any remaining cancer, scrub it all clean. Her doctor is fantastic. Dr. Hunn. One of the very best gynecologic oncological surgeons in the country and one of the first doctors to specialize in these surgeries. Huge confidence in her doctors. From that standpoint it's been a huge success already.

The chemo, as brutal as it was, was very effective as far as they can see before the surgery. They measure a protein associated with ovarian cancer called CA-125. Normally it sits at counts around 35 in our blood, but it elevated with ovarian cancer specifically. Once it gets into the 200+ range they suspect cancer. Hers topped out at 1600. "Crazy high" according to all of her doctors. The last blood count showed it at 24. Lower than they expected or hoped for before surgery. And the scans showed the primary tumor reduced by over 40% with no other signs of disease in the scans. Best case we could hope for. So that's fantastic news!

Not sure if I mentioned this, but she has been part of a study to test a medication to help keep platelet counts up during chemo, specifically for her type of cancer and one of the chemo drugs she was receiving. We found out that she was the only one on the study in the United States, and 1 of only 4 in the world right now, because so many get screened out for various reasons. She was really proud to be part of that. It also was great for her because it meant she had a dedicated set of nurses to with with who were both fantastic. One of the good experiences through all this.

So anyway, that's where we are. I cannot thank everyone here enough for your support and kindness through this. I tell you, I'd rather go through my own chemo again than ever have anyone I love go through this, let alone my partner and best friend in this life. It's been the hardest thing I've gone through personally in my life, and I know what it's been for her. So thank you all again. Tough to go through this without a support group. But it is decidedly weird that a good chunk of my support group are a bunch of random weirdos on a sports fan site. But I'm so grateful for all your weirdos. Thanks for all your support. I love you guys.
 
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LogGrad98 said:
I know I haven't posted much here recently. It worked it's way into being a routine so that's kind of a good thing. Plus I have been trying to stay away from media in general only partly successfully. We have had some very scary moments, I had my moment of needing to tell her goodbye because they didn't think she'd make the night. But she did and I'm eternally grateful for that.

So the current update is the chemo is done. The week after her last chemo treatment we ended up in the ER and they didn't think she'd make the night. Same as with mine, the chemo almost took her from us.

Now I'm sitting in the waiting room at st Mark's while she is in for her hopefully final surgery. Full hysterectomy. Take out everything plus every little sign of any remaining cancer, scrub it all clean. Her doctor is fantastic. Dr. Hunn. One of the very best gynecologic oncological surgeons in the country and one of the first doctors to specialize in these surgeries. Huge confidence in her doctors. From that standpoint it's been a huge success already.

The chemo, as brutal as it was, was very effective as far as they can see before the surgery. They measure a protein associated with ovarian cancer called CA-125. Normally it sits at counts around 35 in our blood, but it elevated with ovarian cancer specifically. Once it gets into the 200+ range they suspect cancer. Hers topped out at 1600. "Crazy high" according to all of her doctors. The last blood count showed it at 24. Lower than they expected or hoped for before surgery. And the scans showed the primary tumor reduced by over 40% with no other signs of disease in the scans. Best case we could hope for. So that's fantastic news!

Not sure if I mentioned this, but she has been part of a study to test a medication to help keep platelet counts up during chemo, specifically for her type of cancer and one of the chemo drugs she was receiving. We found out that she was the only one on the study in the United States, and 1 of only 4 in the world right now, because so many get screened out for various reasons. She was really proud to be part of that. It also was great for her because it meant she had a dedicated set of nurses to with with who were both fantastic. One of the good experiences through all this.

So anyway, that's where we are. I cannot thank everyone here enough for your support and kindness through this. I tell you, I'd rather go through my own chemo again than ever have anyone I love go through this, let alone my partner and best friend in this life. It's been the hardest thing I've gone through personally in my life, and I know what it's been for her. So thank you all again. Tough to go through this without a support group. But it is decidedly weird that a good chunk of my support group are a bunch of random weirdos on a sports fan site. But I'm so grateful for all your weirdos. Thanks for all your support. I love you guys.
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Great post Log. I'm very happy to read some good news and your cancer struggles. It just sounds so ****ing hard and I'm so sorry that you are going through this.
 
LogGrad98 said:
I know I haven't posted much here recently. It worked it's way into being a routine so that's kind of a good thing. Plus I have been trying to stay away from media in general only partly successfully. We have had some very scary moments, I had my moment of needing to tell her goodbye because they didn't think she'd make the night. But she did and I'm eternally grateful for that.

So the current update is the chemo is done. The week after her last chemo treatment we ended up in the ER and they didn't think she'd make the night. Same as with mine, the chemo almost took her from us.

Now I'm sitting in the waiting room at st Mark's while she is in for her hopefully final surgery. Full hysterectomy. Take out everything plus every little sign of any remaining cancer, scrub it all clean. Her doctor is fantastic. Dr. Hunn. One of the very best gynecologic oncological surgeons in the country and one of the first doctors to specialize in these surgeries. Huge confidence in her doctors. From that standpoint it's been a huge success already.

The chemo, as brutal as it was, was very effective as far as they can see before the surgery. They measure a protein associated with ovarian cancer called CA-125. Normally it sits at counts around 35 in our blood, but it elevated with ovarian cancer specifically. Once it gets into the 200+ range they suspect cancer. Hers topped out at 1600. "Crazy high" according to all of her doctors. The last blood count showed it at 24. Lower than they expected or hoped for before surgery. And the scans showed the primary tumor reduced by over 40% with no other signs of disease in the scans. Best case we could hope for. So that's fantastic news!

Not sure if I mentioned this, but she has been part of a study to test a medication to help keep platelet counts up during chemo, specifically for her type of cancer and one of the chemo drugs she was receiving. We found out that she was the only one on the study in the United States, and 1 of only 4 in the world right now, because so many get screened out for various reasons. She was really proud to be part of that. It also was great for her because it meant she had a dedicated set of nurses to with with who were both fantastic. One of the good experiences through all this.

So anyway, that's where we are. I cannot thank everyone here enough for your support and kindness through this. I tell you, I'd rather go through my own chemo again than ever have anyone I love go through this, let alone my partner and best friend in this life. It's been the hardest thing I've gone through personally in my life, and I know what it's been for her. So thank you all again. Tough to go through this without a support group. But it is decidedly weird that a good chunk of my support group are a bunch of random weirdos on a sports fan site. But I'm so grateful for all your weirdos. Thanks for all your support. I love you guys.
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Dr Hunn? Works with nurse Visigoth?
 
LogGrad98 said:
I know I haven't posted much here recently. It worked it's way into being a routine so that's kind of a good thing. Plus I have been trying to stay away from media in general only partly successfully. We have had some very scary moments, I had my moment of needing to tell her goodbye because they didn't think she'd make the night. But she did and I'm eternally grateful for that.

So the current update is the chemo is done. The week after her last chemo treatment we ended up in the ER and they didn't think she'd make the night. Same as with mine, the chemo almost took her from us.

Now I'm sitting in the waiting room at st Mark's while she is in for her hopefully final surgery. Full hysterectomy. Take out everything plus every little sign of any remaining cancer, scrub it all clean. Her doctor is fantastic. Dr. Hunn. One of the very best gynecologic oncological surgeons in the country and one of the first doctors to specialize in these surgeries. Huge confidence in her doctors. From that standpoint it's been a huge success already.

The chemo, as brutal as it was, was very effective as far as they can see before the surgery. They measure a protein associated with ovarian cancer called CA-125. Normally it sits at counts around 35 in our blood, but it elevated with ovarian cancer specifically. Once it gets into the 200+ range they suspect cancer. Hers topped out at 1600. "Crazy high" according to all of her doctors. The last blood count showed it at 24. Lower than they expected or hoped for before surgery. And the scans showed the primary tumor reduced by over 40% with no other signs of disease in the scans. Best case we could hope for. So that's fantastic news!

Not sure if I mentioned this, but she has been part of a study to test a medication to help keep platelet counts up during chemo, specifically for her type of cancer and one of the chemo drugs she was receiving. We found out that she was the only one on the study in the United States, and 1 of only 4 in the world right now, because so many get screened out for various reasons. She was really proud to be part of that. It also was great for her because it meant she had a dedicated set of nurses to with with who were both fantastic. One of the good experiences through all this.

So anyway, that's where we are. I cannot thank everyone here enough for your support and kindness through this. I tell you, I'd rather go through my own chemo again than ever have anyone I love go through this, let alone my partner and best friend in this life. It's been the hardest thing I've gone through personally in my life, and I know what it's been for her. So thank you all again. Tough to go through this without a support group. But it is decidedly weird that a good chunk of my support group are a bunch of random weirdos on a sports fan site. But I'm so grateful for all your weirdos. Thanks for all your support. I love you guys.
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Man, so glad you got Dr. Hunn, she’s amazing.
 
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