When people that close to you die, it is difficult and continues to be triggered by thoughts and events for decades. However, it is important for your sanity to try to focus on the good times you had together and celebrate their life. This is about your situation and not mine so i won't get into my specifics, but in time your pain will lessen a bit.
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Gyp Rosetti
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Yeah, thankfully, I don't remember the ugly or not-so-close times which were mostly what we had over the last 5-10 years. It's prior to that, my high school and college years, when we had this very close, inherent bond that I remember. I am thankful for that. A River Runs Through It was his favorite movie and I love it to a lesser degree, and the brothers close yet still distant relationship in the film reminds me of me and my brother.
Woody Paige has written a very good article today. Read it when you're ready:
https://www.denverpost.com/paige/ci_16149407
https://www.denverpost.com/paige/ci_16149407
Gyp Rosetti
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Good post. The part that struck me was the fact that his diabetes essentially caused his depression. I wonder how many other people have unnecessarily died due to the same biology.
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Chad Feldheimer
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Sorry to hear about your loss.
Archie Moses
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KEK, my condolences. It's sad to here stories like these. It just makes me realize how short, precious, and difficult life can be. We all have our skeletons in our closets and our demons to deal, unfortunately, for some it's just too much to handle. Keep your head up and try to think of the positives of your brother's life and all of his accomplishments. Like a previous poster stated before, he's in a better place, and if not, he's not tormented anymore.
My older brother got a divorce two years ago. He went from being a division one football player and being on top of the world to a drug addict. He got addicted to pills to the point where he was sniffing and injecting them and then got addicted big time into inhaling dust off. It was sad and after all the help my family and I offered, it never helped him. I kept thinking to myself that one day we were going to get a phone call from someone saying he was dead. He always blamed everyone, but himself for all of his demons he had on his back. One night he called me. He told me he couldn't do it anymore and he wanted to say his goodbye. He told me he was going to kill himself. I talked to him for a little while and eventually talked him into dinner and movie with me, on me. It wasn't much, but he accepted. I later did some research on suicide and to my surprise, most people who commit suicide don't talk about it or tell people. The ones who do, generally are the ones looking for help. People who commit suicide often show signs, but they are hard to follow and unpredictable. Like your brother, you may have thought that it was possible, but it's not like he told you. There was nothing you could have done to prevent it. My brother has since cleaned up thanks to his AA meetings and friends.
Your post was strong and I could feel your love for your brother. KEK, you're a good guy. You're in my prayers. Be strong.
My older brother got a divorce two years ago. He went from being a division one football player and being on top of the world to a drug addict. He got addicted to pills to the point where he was sniffing and injecting them and then got addicted big time into inhaling dust off. It was sad and after all the help my family and I offered, it never helped him. I kept thinking to myself that one day we were going to get a phone call from someone saying he was dead. He always blamed everyone, but himself for all of his demons he had on his back. One night he called me. He told me he couldn't do it anymore and he wanted to say his goodbye. He told me he was going to kill himself. I talked to him for a little while and eventually talked him into dinner and movie with me, on me. It wasn't much, but he accepted. I later did some research on suicide and to my surprise, most people who commit suicide don't talk about it or tell people. The ones who do, generally are the ones looking for help. People who commit suicide often show signs, but they are hard to follow and unpredictable. Like your brother, you may have thought that it was possible, but it's not like he told you. There was nothing you could have done to prevent it. My brother has since cleaned up thanks to his AA meetings and friends.
Your post was strong and I could feel your love for your brother. KEK, you're a good guy. You're in my prayers. Be strong.
Gyp Rosetti
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Thanks to everyone for your words. I just got back from his service and it was amazing. Probably like 600 or 700 people showed up, maybe more, and it's great to know he made such an impression on people's lives.
billyshelby
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God that's awful. All I would say is don't blame yourself. I'm sure that isn't easy. But there's no blame in something like this. Hang in there.